Heart disease runs strongly on both sides of my family tree. Both of my grandfathers died of massive coronaries. My mom and my dad and my sister have all had high cholesterol since forever. It is the primary reason I became a vegetarian over 25 years ago.
About a month ago, my mom had what was later found to be a heart attack. There has been testing on going since then and the final decision is that there is a clot but the location of the clot is in a vein that is so small that a stint would likely do more damage than help. It is being treated with medication and she is very upbeat about this.
However, this active woman has been experiencing shortness of breath, and has to occasionally use the chair lift to get up the stairs to her apartment. For the first time in years, she felt unable to make the drive down to spend Christmas with us.
We will bring Christmas to her, and to her friend G on Christmas Eve day. The kids are excited to be travelling up to see her .. I am too. I am mindful that this heart attack was a reminder that time is fast and fleeting and that someday there will be Christmasses when we are farther apart that a drive can solve.
However I am not dwelling on that. Life is also for living and I am of the opinion that if I waste the time we have worrying about when I won't have her, it is like losing my mom now. And since once of my kids is anxiety prone,I have always tried to teach him to live in the moment and that is what we will do. We will laugh, and joke and admire gifts and make memories. Because good memories are what can help us when there are darker times